Monday, February 13, 2012

Just jotting down my random thoughts

Well, I told myself I was going to get better at keeping up with this blogging thing and man how life just seems to be flying by!
A thought I had the last little while......I heard someone say one day "being a stay at home mom should not be wrote down anywhere as a job." I seemed to think about that everyday for a bit! I did let it get to me though one day as I realized to myself that I probably should go out and get a job to help pay for the piling up of bills. I started to feel in the dumps and felt like I didn't do anything worth while and that I was just the mom....and with being a mom comes what I do and it's really not a "job." I have had some very downer days lately and that comment stuck to me.

However, now that I had a few days to sit back and think more clearly I realize it is a LIE to say that being a stay at home mom is not a job. I have a FULL time job that doesn't end. Everyday seems to come with a new set of tasks. Some days I have more to do then others or more messes to clean then others. However, I wake up every morning making sure three kids are fed, dressed and then clean up the breakfast mess.I have beds to make, laudry to do, clothes to put away, lunch to cook, more dishes, wiping noses, cleaning up messes....the list is endless most days! I realize now that I believe I work pretty stinking hard! I am constantly on the go and when that clock hits 5PM or 6PM my job is not done and I don't just "go home until tomorrow." I realize that I could say that I work double overtimes and have late nights....sometimes I am pulling all nighter shifts! My job of being a mother and a wife doesn't end and so why do I feel guilty for not helping more???? I know that I do a lot, I see that.....but somedays just seem to hit me like a pile of bricks in the face thinking that I need to go get a job.

Why do I say this?...because today and the last couple days for some reason more then ever I realize how much people need to realize that being a stay at home mom is not some easy task. It IS a full time job and it IS hard. At the same time though I realize what a blessing I have to be able to stay at home and raise my children! Many moms out there don't have the choice and must work to stay ahead and live. I count my blessings that I am able to see my kids grow up and watch their milestones in life! I think I need to take it all more as a pleasure instead of thinking it's just an everyday thing. I GET to wake up early and send Ryder off on the bus and I am here to see him come home. I GET to take Brooklyn to school and pick her up. So many times we get wrapped up in the everyday things and I think sometimes it's so easy to say and think "i have to do this or that" when really we should say "I GET to do this today."

I know I am not the best mom, but I try. I try to be the mom my children want to have and wish for. Even through all their fits and tantrums and I hope they realize I am learning too! I'm not perfect. Yes I get mad and grumpy just like them, but I love them! I am learning and growing each day just as they are. I hope and pray that my children know of my hard work; that I try hard to make this a happy place to be! I hope that patience grows in our home as I learn this journey we are on.....that we together can be the best family we can! I am grateful I have the gospel in my life for one. I am grateful for a loving and forgiving father in Heaven who loves me despite my faults. It makes me happy to know what we are sealed as a family and will live for Eternity together!!
May we all take a step back and realize that yes we are moms and yes we have a full time job! We should walk with our heads help high for all the many things we do; even all those unseen things!
((It feels good to get my thoughts out as this blogging stuff is mostly for my journal writing.)) :)

Tuesday, January 10, 2012

My little bowler

So back around the first part of November my dad asked if we'd let Ryder join the Junior Bowling League. I really was a bit nervous as to if Ryder would stick with it or not. He sort of is a sore loser to say the least. He likes to win in anything he's doing. Sometimes it becomes quite emotional for him if you play a game or something and he doesn't win! (Strange, I know!) :)
My dad is in charge of the bowling leagues and we figured if nothing else we'd drop out if he didn't like it. So dad took him and little Ryder was SO excited. He's been watching his grandpa bowl and his Aunt Misty and the thought of him doing it now was neat as heck to him.
He struggled for the first few times because he wasn't knocking pins over and really wanted to hit pins. As soon as he got just two pins on one of his throws he was upbeat and excited! He has been doing it now for a bit and loves it. He finds it fun and it's a good challenge for him. He tries super hard to beat Aunt Misty each week and loves when Aunt Misty doesn't bowl good. (He likes to get under her skin a little.) They bowl every Saturday here in town so it's easy and cheap for him to be doing!
My dad just told me last week that with his good scores he's been bowling lately (really good for a 6 yr old) combined with his handicap score he qualifies to go to Pocatello and bowl in a Tournament come April. Boy was Ryder happy and thought he was something neat. Can't wait to let him go and see how he does! :)
Here he is getting all set and ready to go up and throw his ball!

Ryder is getting some lessons from Aunt Misty his first week on what to do....

Now he watches as his ball goes slowly on down the lane...

Good luck to Ryder and hoping he keeps on enjoying it and gets the hang of things like his Grandpa and Aunt Misty do!

SOO behind....Finally here is Thanksgiving

Man how life has seemed to get away from me. I have had good intentions to get on here and get my blog updated, and as you can see I am behind. WAY behind.
A quick few updates and then hopefully I can use 2012 and do better on staying on top of things.
First, our Thanksgiving. We were lucky enough this year for Thanksgiving to go to my sister Val's. We tired the year previous,but we ended up with a big snow storm that kept us home. This year the weather was nice and things panned out and off we went to Las Vegas!
We were able to have about a week down there which was very much needed and enjoyed! We spend some days going around in Vegas visiting things. One day we went to a couple different museums and saw stuff we never got to see before. We saw some really neat things and had fun seeing the kids enjoy themselves and haul their Aunt Val everywhere! :-)
On Thanksgiving morning we got a suprise and had Bryan show up at Val's house! My mom had no idea and either did the kids. He drove up and was able to spend Thanksgiving there and then the next day as well. What a fun time it was. We haven't been able to all get together since my uncle's funeral in March of 2010! It was so nice to sit and enjoy a delicious dinner as a family and laugh about life.
When it was time to leave I had a hard time as did my kids. They hated leaving Aunt Val's (as they are here side kicks when they are around) and it in turn made me sad we had to leave. I enjoy having an older sister and now that we have both grown up I really enjoy the times we get together!
Here are some pictures of our journey down there. Enjoy but beware I had a bunch of pictures!!...it was SO fun and I hope that we can do the Thanksgiving trip again as a family!
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